Alternate Universe

It came in a moment of terror.

Violated perfection.

Innocence scraped off.

Stolen purity.

Damaged soul.

Bruised identity.

Lifeless yet alive.

Waiting to be claimed.

The room is swelling, sweats dripping out of my pores as these four walls try to crush me.
At one moment I forgot to breathe, i forgot that I existed and once again i begin to drift into an overwhelming pool of euphoria.

What is real and what is not is yet to be revealed. It can continue to be hidden until forgotten, until ignored, until humanity ceases to care. Its mystery is beauty. Its mystery is suffering. Its mystery is life. It's far from sacred, hatred, exactly. Hell yes. The forbidden heightens lust , greed becomes inevitable, greed becomes a sinful norm.  Its a fantasy waiting to be stretched until life kisses it, until life abuses it, until life eats it. It starts with sweet hushed whispers, chocolate coated words then turns into bitter unbearable whimpers, moans, screams. Unbearable it may be but indulging indeed. Its not something someone could openly share because it's tainted by hunger, driven by desire. I literally want to eat like a predator savages it's prey, i just can't stop wanting, enough is clearly not enough. I'm an insatiable beast and the worst thing is, I don't want this to cease. I couldnt care less if it would destroy me, I just need it period.

(Random 2min)

source: satans-tentacles

Mates, Date and Chocolate Cheats by Cathy Hopkins

"Oh, I'm so ugly", wailed Nesta.

"And I'm uglier", TJ joined in.

"And I'm the ugliest of all", cried Lucy.

Fun, as light as iced tea. I wasn't completely blown though, not blown at all.  

Kissing Death

She wanted to die. I've always known that she is the weakest link of the four but never did I expect her to give up fighting. I never really envisioned her life before, it's like she just popped out when we needed her. She's gentle and kind. She drowns her hang ups by swimming in liquor. I did not like it but it grew on me, just like everything does. She's not a skilled warrior, she'd probably wound herself before her enemies do but ending her life with her own sword? Do i even know her? The only logical explanation is that she's good at hiding and I must be good at ignoring. I never would have known if it wasn't blurted out into my face. I asked, of course using denial as her shield, I should have known better. I should have known. Doesn't change a thing though, its not something i could sniff my way into. It's sleeping in the past, its having an awful nightmare. But still, being a human with an open mind is a struggle for me. It's hard for me to accept this. Whatever this is. 

(random minnie gif) 

SHINee : Dream Girl