She wanted to die. I've always known that she is the weakest link of the four but never did I expect her to give up fighting. I never really envisioned her life before, it's like she just popped out when we needed her. She's gentle and kind. She drowns her hang ups by swimming in liquor. I did not like it but it grew on me, just like everything does. She's not a skilled warrior, she'd probably wound herself before her enemies do but ending her life with her own sword? Do i even know her? The only logical explanation is that she's good at hiding and I must be good at ignoring. I never would have known if it wasn't blurted out into my face. I asked, of course using denial as her shield, I should have known better. I should have known. Doesn't change a thing though, its not something i could sniff my way into. It's sleeping in the past, its having an awful nightmare. But still, being a human with an open mind is a struggle for me. It's hard for me to accept this. Whatever this is.
Korean dramas and K-movies have always been my weakness. I just can’t seem to find a counter-curse to the spell they cast in me. But K Pop? A big "Aniyo", I just find it too gay, too flamboyant, too histrionic.
As you know, I love to eat words. Most especially mine. It’s my favorite dish. My Achilles heel. The chink in my armor.
Words make me vulnerable.
Give it up for SHINee :
Leader ONEW
Bling bling Jonghyun
The Almighty KEY
Flaming Charisma MINHO
Maknae Taemin
My bias is Minho, i just can't get over his manliness. Key and Taemin are my second. Onew' s voice for me is the best. I don't like Jonghyun that much ( but I admire his powerful voice and i like JongKey). I'm a SHAWOL.
Never underestimate KPOPers This short vacation revolved around fangirling. Korean girls ship the members to each other. I found it odd. But i think shipping a bias to another bias is better than having your bias date a non-member. It's called Korean skin-ship after all, a fan service ( disturbing at first but I'm a 2 min shipper). Or maybe its just another word for bromance. I can't believe that i'm shipping 2 Min, they're making me a pervert. I want to make a fanfic about 2 min and OnHo!
Jonghyun and Taemin fanservice..
(Taeminnie turned into a Taeman) What do you think of Korean Skinship? Is Fanservice going too far? (Don't do that again taemin! Minho Oppa is watching :( .....)
Taemin .......is slowly becoming my bias (sorry Minho, i think I got it bad for this maknae who is becoming a TaeMAN. )
"Nothing is more addictive than the high of a manic episode. Once you have tasted soaring , EXHILARATING , INVINCIBLE , phantasmagorical feeling of "its GREAT to be ME, I can do ANYTHING". once you've experienced the rush of your mind in OVERDRIVE, the creativity pouring through it, the connectivity of burgeoning lateral thinking, the ridiculous ease of witty repartee, the UNUTTERABLE knowledge of your OWN IMMENSITY, you own INFINITY, then life without another mania is a dreary prospect indeed.
I’m not really a twi-hard but I did watch every movie. I used to be on Team Jacob ( I’m team Taylor NOW!!!!) , I guess things like these are bound to happen back when you’re in high school, none the less, I try to convince myself that I’m Completely pass that.
I had a hard time convincing myself to purchase a copy of the host because it involved ALIENS. I’m not really into that genre. Also, I was afraid that it would be similar to Bella’s story that centered in romance. I watched the trailer and I was completely blown! One of my weak points is that I let the actors influence me in terms of novel-turned-movie books. I fancy Saoirse Ronan.
I bought the book on march 1 and finished it on the 4th (829 pages). No matter how busy I am, I always find time for my obsession. It’s innate I guess, I’m always fixated on what’s gonna happen on the next chapters. Anxiety develops and we all know that the instant solution for this is to give in to that compulsion.
Melanie Stryder was one of the few humans left on earth when SOULS invaded. She’d rather be dead than let SOULS take over her body. The exact reason why she remained intact inside her body even when the WandeRER already occupied it. So it was like two persons inside one host. But that was not the end of it, as Melanie recalls her past life with JARED, the WANDERER developed a humane love for him too. It’s one of the most extraordinary love affair I’ve ever witnessed. Stephenie Meyer also brought a new perspective on what being a human truly means. It’s more than just being born as one but feeling like one even when you’re not. Ceasing and being born as one. Being human somehow falls in double effect. Is being called human negative or positive? Its complicated, not black and white this time.
I was a little disappointed with the lack of mind blowing action scenes. I was expecting cruelty if not from the souls, from the humans. I mean this is alienation! There should be unbearable death, suffering , hopelessness and pity. Scenes like this were kept at a minimal.
“Why did life and love go on?, what was the point?"
First of all, the main reason I’m watching this is because of ANNASOPHIA ROBB. She’s drop dead gorgeous and if we put Hollywood behind this, I think I’m becoming a lesbo. This is against all what I stand for, so where am I in all this? Let’s put it this way. I’m a girl, being one requires attraction to a male counterpart, which I still have. There are always exemptions to the rules so that one belongs to HER. To summarize it all, I’m a girl in anyway possible except when it comes ANNASOPHIA ROBB.
Now that everything is crystal , let’s talk about this new show.
Are you a fan of sex and the city? And somehow you don’t find it appropriate due to the fact that they are in their late adulthood and their dilemmas are out of the question. So here is the perfect show for you! Carrie Bradshaw turns back to being a 16 y/o. Carrie just lost her mom, her sister is being a pain in the ass and she is the last virgin. As every single thing seems to be suspended, that's when Sebastian Kydd comes in. He’s too cool for school, and he finds her as an escape. She is also having an internship in Manhattan and by far, she is having a blast. Juggling her school, her family , her friends , her dream and her perfect guy, things seems to be falling in place…. Or are they?
Today we had our first duty in a mental institution in Cabugao Ilocos Sur. The moment i heard about this news, the images from wrong turn IV flashed in my head. I was damn scared. The meeting time was jeopardized because of the fact that Filipinos have their own time. The CI kind of criticized me AGAIN ( I'm getting the feeling that she doesnt like me that much , oh well the feeling is fucking mutual. Yes I said that word again, so beat it). The experience was fine but not that remarkable. A line is now drawn between the terms defense mechanism and coping mechanism. I don't normally write detailed posts about my learning experiences because let's face it , studying can get flat. But it seems fitting to write this because it's a leap none the less. Sometimes we have to fake it to make it (Carrie Diaries) . I had to fake being interested in my patient's life so I could put something in that NPI requirement. I know, i know!! it's terrible, I'm terrible. It's my job to explore things, to make people who can't verbalize feelings be able to but most of the time I just don't care. I'm trying to care for others but one thing i'm sure about myself is that i'm an island, not a continent.
