Hammock

My brain is hazy, incoherent cluster-fuck of thoughts slip out failing to form a single decent sentence. It is scattered in a vast space, it is but a pile of rubbish void of a similar entity. Raw, with jagged edges, ugly curves, imperfect spheres and sharp tips hungry for velvet red. 

Unfamiliarity is lethal.

Self-murder, it is.

With the discernible rowdiness  comes a fervent need to sort out. The digging commences, classifying inseparable clutters into a clean-cut oneness. 

Variance becomes unique. 

An atypical treasure but collectively it is a mass of interconnected glow in the darks creating a pattern that illuminates an abyss. 

I soak in a thick,  heavy darkness but resuscitated by a light boring from a hole.

My brain is hazy, incoherent cluster-fuck of thoughts slip out failing to form a single decent sentence all because it wouldn't suffice.

   

Gotta love pervert Yeollie 

happy KaiSoo day!

(warning : image heavy)

Close your eyes.

Let that aberrant emotion obliterate your sanity.

You dont need it today, it's a free pass.   

It's KaiSoo day.

Yehet i'm allowed to be gay, as in homo as in yaoi (shiet i'm still prude damn it because i'm so not, it's unhealthy )

   

It's my favorite OTP's day so i'm allowed to be one-dimensional and to accede my inner fan girl in exploding with mah fan girl feels. Yehet ( it's a language called Sehunneese so you might not comprehend it, like i care for tiny bit).

Do Kyungsoo was born on January 12,1993.

Kim Jongin was born on January 14,1994.

It's fate i'm telling you 

Kyungsoo doesnt wear pants.

Jongin likes it topless.

Even their bodies compliment each other. (I'm a pervert so shut it)

Kyungsoo's number is 12.

Jongin's number is 88.

12 + 88 = ( Do the freaking math)

This is Kyungsoo

This is Jongin

This is KaiSoo 

 

 

Numbers are but figments so they cannot by in any means be used to etch a border but they do anyway so here it is my trifling lucidity waning to a prodigious incoherency.

Unless it kills you, unless you intend to terminate your mortality, do not converse to three-year olds.

They are nut jobs waiting to be trashed into a nut house.

 

Byuntae for Byun Baekhyun

The Great Gatsby

"He had come such a long way and his dreams must have seem so close that he could hardly fail to grasp it but he did not know that it was already behind him. Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that's no matter—to-morrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther. . . . And one fine morning——

So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.” 

 Truth be told, i wasn't expecting much from this movie. I knew it was going to sell well,  I mean Leo? Tobey? Carrey?  Isla? Long Island? extravagant production and a matching classic book to match. Not to mention CALLAN MCAULIFFE was there in like ten freaking minutes. I just didnt expect it to appeal to me to the extent of making me want to purchase a paper back copy at the spur of the moment. This movie shall scar my soul for it crafted without any effort a commotion in my own boundless universe because honestly, that is all I have , through that motion my infinity stretches. 

 Nick Carraway, a Yale graduate moves next door to a mysteriously filthy rich Jay Gatsby in Long Island. Deep down Nick always had the intuition that he was being watched by the billionaire until one night he received an invitation into one of the profligate parties his neighbor holds.  Before he knew it , he had become the keeper of secrets of the inhabitants of Long Island.

I really hated Daisy in here for leaving everything that she smashes and being easily influenced by her philandering husband. As for Gatsby, despite being a bootlegger, i could say i really pitied the way his life tragically ended. He waited for daisy for five years, he reached out for that green light every night. He built his right across hers, if you don't consider that quixotic i don't know what it is.  Nick Carraway pushed me in this ditch when he looked out from that flat's window in New York, when he became enchanted with the inexhaustible variety of life. 

“He smiled understandingly-much more than understandingly. It was one of those rare smiles with a quality of eternal reassurance in it, that you may come across four or five times in life. It faced--or seemed to face--the whole eternal world for an instant, and then concentrated on you with an irresistible prejudice in your favor. It understood you just as far as you wanted to be understood, believed in you as you would like to believe in yourself, and assured you that it had precisely the impression of you that, at your best, you hoped to convey.” 

― F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby 

Lips like caterpillar.

 

There's nothing about Baekyeol shipping in here, except for the gif above. Ignore their derpness, if you may. Ignore the fact that the title of this post pertains to that cheeky devil Kai

This is about an AFF fic titled Sinned by Primrosing.

"You're in deep shit", tell me that Oh Sehun.

Let me rant about how that fic is the origin of my exhilaration right now.

How could she turn this baby-faced flower boy to a man-whore pedophile next door neighbor? 

Each chapter is literally rubbing itself against my crotch crafting a colossal fetish.

  

...Miawitch

...Me-out

  

cATMwoHsUMSLotHWheelyEWbiATch

I am, with full intention, ignoring the rules of capitalization because if Margo taught me one thing, its head on unfair for the rest of the letters. All hail Rostad for her effort in reinforcing the fading and snoring loathe in my chest, i shall live with this new found awareness until it sweats out  from my flesh, until i hear your faint whisper in the crook of my neck, until words abandon you with the exemption of my name. Until you bleed into submission. Cry, moan for it, i never cared for your sake in the first place, there is no place for such in my center. I've been dragging not only this but everything else in my messed up life, no surprise there, you just met the biggest slacker, the master of procrastination truth be told. If i could desist from thinking, if talking is parallel to my thinking I wouldn't be stuck in an inferno of doubts. I have accustomed my self in expecting the worst case scenario so i'm afraid that this is nothing but a tattered cliche. And I never learn. Not when the wind embraces me, not when fire licks,  not when water inundates me, I am left futile.
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Spare me from this madness.

(random exo gif)
Stuff you giant!!!!

EXO

Alice fell into the rabbit's hole.

Rapunzel was stuck in a tower to comb her golden hair.

Aurora was bound to a century of slumber.

Ariel longed to walk but she was squeezed in a slimy tail instead.

Snow was given a second life but she was tempted by a mere apple.

I took all precautions necessary.

I considered them identical gays.

I turned a blind eye to their swarming videos.

I failed.

Immensely.

 EXO - K

 

 EXO - M

Twelve guys. I cannot believe i memorized their names in one week's time. I don't need another SHINee or Big Bang in my life. I don't want to read exo fanfics to further corrupt my already corrupted mind, i want to say good bye to the endless shippings , yaois , OTPs and such. It's their song Growl that triggered it, then the drama version of wolf came, I have lost it. 

Maybe it's not today, nor tomorrow nor in the near future but I will, one day, be able to escape from the rabbit's hole.

Drama version of WOLF :