Gulping an iced- coffee in a plastic cup 
I had a HOTTIE overload Today..
Not that we had direct communication or anything just the giggling @ a distance sort which im the master of. I technically had lunch with him in the same place, if you disregard the tables and spaces anyway…..
I’ve never been obsessed with anyone like this before. I think that’s the problem, I am obsessed. Im technically blind In all the realistic possibilities that my eyes could not notice what could be really happening cms away in front of me because im too focused on what I see in him and how I feel about it. It doesn’t have a two way passage, it’s a dead end with no light ahead. And the only way that I could ever save myself is if I turn back and snap out of my insanity. Which I think wouldn’t be necessary due to my lack of direction and my ignorance with inter-social charm and physicality of the obvious which is my doomed imperfection.
To sum it all up, I don’t want to saved.

His vespa beside my vespa. I swear it happened! I was trembling>>>>>>>>>