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I am, with full intention, ignoring the rules of capitalization because if Margo taught me one thing, its head on unfair for the rest of the letters. All hail Rostad for her effort in reinforcing the fading and snoring loathe in my chest, i shall live with this new found awareness until it sweats out  from my flesh, until i hear your faint whisper in the crook of my neck, until words abandon you with the exemption of my name. Until you bleed into submission. Cry, moan for it, i never cared for your sake in the first place, there is no place for such in my center. I've been dragging not only this but everything else in my messed up life, no surprise there, you just met the biggest slacker, the master of procrastination truth be told. If i could desist from thinking, if talking is parallel to my thinking I wouldn't be stuck in an inferno of doubts. I have accustomed my self in expecting the worst case scenario so i'm afraid that this is nothing but a tattered cliche. And I never learn. Not when the wind embraces me, not when fire licks,  not when water inundates me, I am left futile.
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Spare me from this madness.

(random exo gif)
Stuff you giant!!!!

EXO

Alice fell into the rabbit's hole.

Rapunzel was stuck in a tower to comb her golden hair.

Aurora was bound to a century of slumber.

Ariel longed to walk but she was squeezed in a slimy tail instead.

Snow was given a second life but she was tempted by a mere apple.

I took all precautions necessary.

I considered them identical gays.

I turned a blind eye to their swarming videos.

I failed.

Immensely.

 EXO - K

 

 EXO - M

Twelve guys. I cannot believe i memorized their names in one week's time. I don't need another SHINee or Big Bang in my life. I don't want to read exo fanfics to further corrupt my already corrupted mind, i want to say good bye to the endless shippings , yaois , OTPs and such. It's their song Growl that triggered it, then the drama version of wolf came, I have lost it. 

Maybe it's not today, nor tomorrow nor in the near future but I will, one day, be able to escape from the rabbit's hole.

Drama version of WOLF :  

Ichigosama

She is 18.

She is a Filipina.

She is Minho-obsessed.

Delusional perhaps.

  

Her fluffs command butterflies to flutter in my stomach.

Her cracks acidify my gut.

Her horror fics petrify my soul.

Her angst punches my heart to the point of  failure.

And her smut.

How can i even begin with that. 

She is golden.

She's one of the main reasons why i joined AFF and I just can't bear the fact that she's leaving. 

For good, as she says. 

She's growing older and the things that used to excite her cannot suffice to quench her thirst any longer. 

She's tied, I get that perhaps I just envy the fact that she's breaking loose.

But why does it have to end this way? 

Can't you grow old and not change? 

Do you really have to lose yourself to find it again?  

It's just so sad and frustrating. 

Sympathy to her mere silhouette, who would have thought?

Her reality caught her off guard, so childhood is nothing but an ignorant dream.

It's just so difficult to accept.

Difficult to accept the fact that i cant accept it.  

Kudos to you, Ichigosama.

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New bias from EXO :
Tao
20
Wushu
Het.... (i know)
Undergone surgery because hello! no one can look that perfect.  
This phase will be over sooner or later. 
My shallowness shall fade with time. 

(unrelated TAO gif. TAO. panda)  

Exo : Growl 

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Happy Two Decades of Life Lee Tae Min (in international years anyway!)

  

Yah! Mushroom head! 

Happy Birthday!!! 

 

 From the craziest Tae-mints

I'll think about it first, neh?

                                                                                                                

Okay I'll go now Taeminnie! 

     
  I still have cancer to study!

But I'll be reading this FANFIC first because the chapter that I've been waiting for is finally up!
(it has a tiny bit of 2min of course) 

Aberrant

The roof began to play a rhythmic beat; your heart swells , it was a song you have always heard yet somehow it's melancholic touch never seem to get old to you. Your neck jerked peripherally and you were magnetized out of your consciousness. Through the window you saw the world dancing, the gray sky knelt down to touch the earth as it cried a river; it was agony but it was exquisite. Tears fell from the sky to shower the dry crust , you stretched out your hand to catch a droplet and it blurred the pattern of life engraved in your palms. You sighed, your nose turned red, a lump on your throat surfaced and your eyes glittered. You thwarted away from blinking  because those liquefied diamonds would shatter. Gravity, you allowed it to do its sole job and finally you waved the white flag.  It was inky and you were ready to shut the world from your sight, sluggishly you did and you met an abyss. You inhaled the scent of nature. You missed the warmth, you longed for that fire, you wanted it enough that you cease to care if it scorches away your skin. You wanted those arms to take hold of you, for it to tie ropes to your limbs and allow it to manipulate you. You've been running too long, too fast to notice that half of your short life has already passed. It was just a damned deja vu.



(AFF experiment) 



 ( another unrelated Minnie gif )
  Source : a fellow taemint : Primrose0930

Epiphany

We are solitary dots in a crumpled paper waiting for a pen to connect us, to turn us into a single line once more.

I'm blind, a mute , a deaf and a cripple.

 A lie.

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They greeted her with warm smiles.

Laughters couldnt stop from rolling.

An infinity of words approached them.

The past became their mutual friend but the future remained as her constant enemy.

Suddenly I'm out for blood, literally.

I just finished my first OC fanfic titled Fanboy. I'm currently editing a one-shot OTP of 2min which is called Night Time ( it's giving me a hell of a head ache since I'm trying to add smut into it. It's freaking hard! but for the love of 2min I shall try till I experience that required feeling(wink-wink *_* ). I just made an uncooked draft of another OC fanfic. It is titled Heart Problems where you can be Lee Shinye. 

  Excitement has suddenly tingled my spine. I know that I'm new to this and my works are synonymous to a stain in a wedding gown  but I just feel this internal fulfillment (if you know what I mean). I think real happiness is innate and it doesn't need to be show cased. After all, you can fake being happy for others , but not to yourself. If you can, well..... good for you.

Heart Problems : OC Multishot

 

Links to : (by yours truly)

Fanboy

Night Time

Heart Problems

Prevention 

I couldnt stop reading these fan fics like seriously when did everyone seemed to have develop their mad writing skills. I am turning to a green monster once again but this time it's challenge to definitely win. It's beginning to be an unhealthy habit. But who cares!

Here are my top favorites:

Strawberry Jam 

Nalgae

Trouble

Follow the Leader

Fact or Fiction