Friday, October 25, 2013

The Great Gatsby

"He had come such a long way and his dreams must have seem so close that he could hardly fail to grasp it but he did not know that it was already behind him. Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that's no matter—to-morrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther. . . . And one fine morning——


So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.” 
 Truth be told, i wasn't expecting much from this movie. I knew it was going to sell well,  I mean Leo? Tobey? Carrey?  Isla? Long Island? extravagant production and a matching classic book to match. Not to mention CALLAN MCAULIFFE was there in like ten freaking minutes. I just didnt expect it to appeal to me to the extent of making me want to purchase a paper back copy at the spur of the moment. This movie shall scar my soul for it crafted without any effort a commotion in my own boundless universe because honestly, that is all I have , through that motion my infinity stretches. 




 Nick Carraway, a Yale graduate moves next door to a mysteriously filthy rich Jay Gatsby in Long Island. Deep down Nick always had the intuition that he was being watched by the billionaire until one night he received an invitation into one of the profligate parties his neighbor holds.  Before he knew it , he had become the keeper of secrets of the inhabitants of Long Island.

I really hated Daisy in here for leaving everything that she smashes and being easily influenced by her philandering husband. As for Gatsby, despite being a bootlegger, i could say i really pitied the way his life tragically ended. He waited for daisy for five years, he reached out for that green light every night. He built his right across hers, if you don't consider that quixotic i don't know what it is.  Nick Carraway pushed me in this ditch when he looked out from that flat's window in New York, when he became enchanted with the inexhaustible variety of life. 



“He smiled understandingly-much more than understandingly. It was one of those rare smiles with a quality of eternal reassurance in it, that you may come across four or five times in life. It faced--or seemed to face--the whole eternal world for an instant, and then concentrated on you with an irresistible prejudice in your favor. It understood you just as far as you wanted to be understood, believed in you as you would like to believe in yourself, and assured you that it had precisely the impression of you that, at your best, you hoped to convey.” 



Sunday, October 20, 2013

Lips like caterpillar.


 
There's nothing about Baekyeol shipping in here, except for the gif above. Ignore their derpness, if you may. Ignore the fact that the title of this post pertains to that cheeky devil Kai

This is about an AFF fic titled Sinned by Primrosing.

"You're in deep shit", tell me that Oh Sehun.

Let me rant about how that fic is the origin of my exhilaration right now.

How could she turn this baby-faced flower boy to a man-whore pedophile next door neighbor? 

Each chapter is literally rubbing itself against my crotch crafting a colossal fetish.
  



...Miawitch
...Me-out
  


Friday, September 27, 2013

cATMwoHsUMSLotHWheelyEWbiATch


I am, with full intention, ignoring the rules of capitalization because if Margo taught me one thing, its head on unfair for the rest of the letters. All hail Rostad for her effort in reinforcing the fading and snoring loathe in my chest, i shall live with this new found awareness until it sweats out  from my flesh, until i hear your faint whisper in the crook of my neck, until words abandon you with the exemption of my name. Until you bleed into submission. Cry, moan for it, i never cared for your sake in the first place, there is no place for such in my center. I've been dragging not only this but everything else in my messed up life, no surprise there, you just met the biggest slacker, the master of procrastination truth be told. If i could desist from thinking, if talking is parallel to my thinking I wouldn't be stuck in an inferno of doubts. I have accustomed my self in expecting the worst case scenario so i'm afraid that this is nothing but a tattered cliche. And I never learn. Not when the wind embraces me, not when fire licks,  not when water inundates me, I am left futile.
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Spare me from this madness.

(random exo gif)
Stuff you giant!!!!


Tuesday, August 20, 2013

EXO

Alice fell into the rabbit's hole.

Rapunzel was stuck in a tower to comb her golden hair.

Aurora was bound to a century of slumber.

Ariel longed to walk but she was squeezed in a slimy tail instead.

Snow was given a second life but she was tempted by a mere apple.

I took all precautions necessary.

I considered them identical gays.

I turned a blind eye to their swarming videos.

I failed.

Immensely.



 EXO - K


 EXO - M



Twelve guys. I cannot believe i memorized their names in one week's time. I don't need another SHINee or Big Bang in my life. I don't want to read exo fanfics to further corrupt my already corrupted mind, i want to say good bye to the endless shippings , yaois , OTPs and such. It's their song Growl that triggered it, then the drama version of wolf came, I have lost it. 

Maybe it's not today, nor tomorrow nor in the near future but I will, one day, be able to escape from the rabbit's hole.



Drama version of WOLF :  





Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Ichigosama

She is 18.


She is a Filipina.


She is Minho-obsessed.


Delusional perhaps.
  

Her fluffs command butterflies to flutter in my stomach.


Her cracks acidify my gut.


Her horror fics petrify my soul.


Her angst punches my heart to the point of  failure.


And her smut.


How can i even begin with that. 


She is golden.

She's one of the main reasons why i joined AFF and I just can't bear the fact that she's leaving. 
For good, as she says. 
She's growing older and the things that used to excite her cannot suffice to quench her thirst any longer. 
She's tied, I get that perhaps I just envy the fact that she's breaking loose.
But why does it have to end this way? 
Can't you grow old and not change? 
Do you really have to lose yourself to find it again?  
It's just so sad and frustrating. 
Sympathy to her mere silhouette, who would have thought?
Her reality caught her off guard, so childhood is nothing but an ignorant dream.
It's just so difficult to accept.
Difficult to accept the fact that i cant accept it.  
Kudos to you, Ichigosama.

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New bias from EXO :
Tao
20
Wushu
Het.... (i know)
Undergone surgery because hello! no one can look that perfect.  
This phase will be over sooner or later. 
My shallowness shall fade with time. 
(unrelated TAO gif. TAO. panda)  




Exo : Growl 

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Thursday, July 18, 2013

Happy Two Decades of Life Lee Tae Min (in international years anyway!)


  

Yah! Mushroom head! 


Happy Birthday!!! 


 From the craziest Tae-mints



I'll think about it first, neh?

                                                                                                                
Okay I'll go now Taeminnie! 
     
  I still have cancer to study!

But I'll be reading this FANFIC first because the chapter that I've been waiting for is finally up!
(it has a tiny bit of 2min of course) 


Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Aberrant



The roof began to play a rhythmic beat; your heart swells , it was a song you have always heard yet somehow it's melancholic touch never seem to get old to you. Your neck jerked peripherally and you were magnetized out of your consciousness. Through the window you saw the world dancing, the gray sky knelt down to touch the earth as it cried a river; it was agony but it was exquisite. Tears fell from the sky to shower the dry crust , you stretched out your hand to catch a droplet and it blurred the pattern of life engraved in your palms. You sighed, your nose turned red, a lump on your throat surfaced and your eyes glittered. You thwarted away from blinking  because those liquefied diamonds would shatter. Gravity, you allowed it to do its sole job and finally you waved the white flag.  It was inky and you were ready to shut the world from your sight, sluggishly you did and you met an abyss. You inhaled the scent of nature. You missed the warmth, you longed for that fire, you wanted it enough that you cease to care if it scorches away your skin. You wanted those arms to take hold of you, for it to tie ropes to your limbs and allow it to manipulate you. You've been running too long, too fast to notice that half of your short life has already passed. It was just a damned deja vu.



(AFF experiment) 



 ( another unrelated Minnie gif )
  Source : a fellow taemint : Primrose0930